I did not foresee the events that would lead to where we are today. A cold February evening, as I sat in the E.R. wondering if I would ever see my husband again, we all began a journey that would bring us more hope than we ever knew we needed.
Fast forward to August 13, 2014. We are making a road trip cross country in an "old school RV" just because we want to. Completely random and totally unexpected, just like Scott's brain tumor. Life comes at you and sometimes you have time to choose your reactions and sometimes you just get to react.
I've decided that waiting for the right time for any situation is just not for me. I've always been taught to be cautious, take my time, think things through, be predictable. I've missed out on a lot of things because of wanting to please others and do everything right.
There is no right....there is only what works and what doesn't. The thing I've now learned about having illusions of controlling life, is that for all the caution, planning, safety and the right way or no way of doing things; random tragity strikes, natural disasters happen, illness takes over, children grow up, people leave us, and life changes whether we want it to or not.
Instead of passively waiting for some reward for being obiedient and carefully calculating risks, passing on the ones that might bring some trouble....I am actively seeking out all the opportunities we can to live. Bring it.
We decided to not wait until retirement to get an RV. An opportunity presented itself and I couldn't say no to all the time we can spend together making memory after memory. Good, bad, indifferent...doesn't matter. We love to travel. We put it off for many of the typical reasons. No time, money, can't please everyone, etc....
Nothing like learning your best friend and most favorite person in the world, the one you planned to see the world with, might not be here to do that with after all your careful planning and sacrifice, to quickly snap things into perspective.
We have today. No more waiting for me. I don't really care that it's not someone else's idea of practical. It is not practical for my family to wait. If we keep waiting, we might miss the opportunities we have to be together now!
"You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment. Fools stand on their island of opportunities and look toward another land. There is no other land; there is no other life but this." -Henry David Thoreau
Our hunt for hope today comes by way of unexpected adventure and we cannot stop looking at each moment as eternity. After all, moments are what we have.
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